Stalled
By: afg
Rating: PG
Category: angst
Spoilers: Red Sky
Disclaimer: Not mine and no money is being made



I've finally done it. The thing that I lie awake at night and worry 
about, the meat of my nightmares. I can see it in his eyes and I 'm 
paralysed with the knowledge, I can feel the little cogs and gears in my 
brain screeching in want of the lubricant of ideas. They're not coming. 
I'm going to destroy an entire planet. I'm going to kill all these people. 
Me, my fault. I try so hard to cover all the bases, but sometimes the 
beauty of the science blinds me to its all too real results. The people it 
affects. I'm so wrapped up in the minutiae that I forget to look up. 
These people and their children are the price I'm going to pay. I 
screwed up and I think it's beyond my ability to repair.


She's not looking me in the eye. I know what she's doing and I don't 
know how to help her. If this planet is trashed I don't know what she'll 
do. This kicker is that it isn't really her fault, it's the whole programme 
that's to blame. We muck around with a technology we don't really 
understand. It's like giving a baby a bomb to play with, at some point 
you're going to get one hell of a bang. We all expect Carter to have the 
answers but she's winging it along with the rest of us. Maybe I'll get 
Daniel to have a quiet word, he always seems to give her inspiration 
when it comes to brain freeze. I know she can sort this, she just needs 
to know it too.